Its been a long week....

Last weekend I started to not feel so hot my glans were swollen and I was tired completely feeling like I was coming down with something. Saturday night I went to church then went out with friends as u`sual went to bed feeling kinda crapy. Stayed home sunday except for a trip to urgent care to be told I had respiratory illness no really. I was hacking up lungs I didnt know that!! Then monday the coughing got bad and I could not get my fever to stay down so off to the emergency room I went. Viral respiratory syndrome go home get lots of rest and drink lots of fluids. Thursday came I was suppose to go in for an inservice at work still had a slight fever and a rash reappeared under my arms. Could not get into the dr for the life of me so I went to sparrow urgent care where that dr said sounds like swine flu to me but cdc wont let us test( dont get me started on that one.) That dr extended my stay home in isolation to society until monday. In the meantime I am going nuts. I want chocolate, I want contact with the outside world I would like to see my friends or at least hear from them on the phone none of the above are happening at least not till monday so that is my long week.

Overwhelmed by life.

This week was one heck of a week. On Tuesday Oct 7th was the one year anniversary of my grandmas death. I now work where she was before she died and was concerned about working that day. Earlier in the day I had, had a brief conversation with one of my pastors and knew I was going into work covered with prayer. I really didn't have a hard time until one of my residents begin the journey of death. But while that too was sad I was able to provide care for my resident and her family knowing what made me comforted and helped as I sat with Grandma as she died. Shortly before picking up my check this afternoon she passed and the family all thanked me for my tears as it made them feel comforted. Looking back over the last few days while I was grieving God used my grief to help another family. I started thinking of maybe possibly doing some hospice nursing. Tonight I also need to be reminded that my reaction to other things this week also comes out of my grief and can make some of the small things seem big and some of the big Things seem overwhelmingly HUGE.

Love you always and forever grandma miss you tons"WHEN WE ALL GET TO HEAVEN WHAT A DAY OF REJOCING THAT WILL BE."

Love you forever......

This is my grandma Gilson she has been gone almost one year now. I love her lots to this day my grandma was always there. She lived behind us while we were growing up. Now that fall is coming a friend of mine was talking about making applesauce and asked if I ever had. My grandma had apple trees in her yard and I do remember making applesauce with her and my mom using the apples from her trees. I was extremely young so its a blurred memory but its one no the less. I remember climbing the apple trees. I remember raking the leaves into piles and then she would let us jump in them her yard was always full of leaves in the fall. While I wish she was still here I am no she is now made perfect. Love you Grandma always and forever.

Just want to....

Get in the car and drive go somewhere anywhere just not here. BUT... I have to work tomorrow. I had to work memorial day and the weekend of fourth of july but not july 4th. I have a challenging Hall at work tomorrow too. But I have tuesday off and plan to stay put Now do I make anysense? No I didnt think so.

That Old House

This is my childhood home. This house could tell many of story. My parents live in my grandmas house so they put this one on the market two weeks ago and closed on it yesterday its a blessing for them and it is just a house but it still makes me a little sad. This house is a two bed room ranch that housed all 8 of us at least up to my senior year of high school. I have five brothers and sisters we are all adopted different ones coming at different times. When I was in fourth grade my two youngest sisters were the last to come they were my other grandmothers foster kids and so the courts thought it was in there best interest if they came to live with us permanently(sp), they already knew us and spent lots of time with us so it wasnt too much of an adjustment. My parents moved their bedroom back to the master bed room and put us four girls in the basement before the walls went up to make official bedrooms all four of our beds were side by side. When the walls went up the basement was divide into three rooms on the side that was not the laundry room side. Two bedrooms and the closet and play area was in between the two rooms my sisters and I affectionately dubbed this room the "middle". The ceiling in the basement was never done so noise always rose up to living room where mom and or dad would kick the floor with their foot. "Quiet down there girls!!!" We were growing up when cabbage patch kids first came out and we all had flannel night gowns with a cabbage path kid on the front. One night my older sister decided she was going to turn off the light before I was ready for bed I whipped the my night gone over my head to whip at her and it sparked before you knew all four of us girls met in the "middle" and turned off all the lights and spent the next few minutes making our night gowns spark,laughing up a storm, next thing we heard THUMP THUMP THUMP...girls dont make me come down there go to bed! Now the boys they dug a hole to china and struck water instead. We had some hard times in that house too but in the end the things we still talk about at family get togethers are the silly things us kids did in that house. I will miss it but thankful we all still live close.

School

I just found out last night that I was working in the wrong class a week after school started luckily it is at home course so I just has to back up and restart the other course today. I am at the library right now waiting for the computer to catch up with my print job. I am off today and work the weekend so far all of you actually having fun this weekend enjoy

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